My DuMdUm World

Thursday, July 31, 2003

Well just finished doing quite a bit of work. And recorded new tracks for md so i wun get so bored when i work tmr. Signed up with a new tracker which enables me to find clients online! OMG This may be the ideal way! Hope its worth the money >_< So desperate for work. MORE WORK!

Trying to put her out of my mind but she's always there. Everytime i see her present beside my bedside table, my heart melts like strawberry chocolate. Really feels very sad to let go... But i guess i have to... Well if u know how i feel you won't blame me for giving it all up. If u do, u dun understand how i feel. Behind a mask with a crying heart and a smiling face. A society of masks.

How can i leave my drums too? My hands are itching. 3 days of not touching drums. Its worse than drug addiction. Its going against your very nature. To stop doing things you love to do, to stop loving things. Yes maybe that's what i am trying to do. Abandon love. But the harder you try to forget something the stronger it sticks to your mind.

I need help. I need a way to let myself out.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:47:00 AM

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

Updating and designing of dsd webpage. Flash intensive. Workload estimate 2 mths. -No charge (portfolio)

Database management and manipulation software for astral cytronics. Workload estimate 2weeks prototype for client. 2 additional weeks for adjustments-26k

Employee medical certificate online application. Database access and manipulation. Workload estimate 1 week. (Partnership)-1.5k

I've done it. I have no life. I'm a programmer. When the time comes, i'll come back. And when i do i'll win her heart. Until then, ~~~>_<~~~ T.T. That is all i can say

(0) So Waddaya Think! 4:53:00 AM

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

Just finished talking to you yi. It seems that everyone at one point in their life has thought of making big money and all those stuff... But how many have actually gone to do it? Balance your life with your work? For me its all work no life...

The difference between having dreams and living one is passion. My passion is dead and my dreams are scattered. Now there's only endless work...

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:36:00 AM

Ok some things are done... I guess i've really left my sticks and left my drums. Telling them that i wanna leave the band... is really one of the worst things to do. Really feels like when i broke up last time. Only i'm not crying of course -.-" Oh read degussa's blog and got sort of a sneak preview of what lies ahead for me. SPOILER!

Well all i saw in his page was "SIAN SIAN SBS SI BEI SIAN" hahaha. I guess there will be a time u get used to it and work > life. Yes i have thought about it WORK > LIFE. In other words i have no life. Just like the days of progaming where my life was online... only now my life is in my work. But so what? Who cares? I can only say that i won't reconsider or think twice until i acquire my apartment and car.

I have a new motto in life. Money can't buy everything, so make do with the things that you can. Happiness can be bought to a certain extent. And i will be sufficiently happy to that extent. No time to write blog. Time to work on portfolio and project!

Really miss luna... She has 0 interest in me, i guess it isnt the time to win her heart. Maybe when she's a little older or when i really know how to win her heart then i'll be back. But i won't give up. Never

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:50:00 AM

Monday, July 28, 2003

Shh blogging from my workplace. I guess it has hit me harder than i thought it would... Reading the message luna sent to me... Now i have no appetite and i have no mood to work even... I think i lost interest in it all... Gonna need time to regain myself and my confidence and to do my work again.

I think i'm crushed by the fact... That i knew would happen

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:36:00 PM

Well today has been a long day. Lots of working lots of planning. Kind of feel like leaving music as a whole. Why? Well there's too many reasons. Well lets start by saying that i gave LUNA a message and she has 0 interest in me =.=". I guess that gave me a wake up call. >_<

I've been doing all i can giving all i had and 0 no impact. Giving too much and getting nothing in return... Only emptiness. I think its time that i stopped doing things that i like to do that i want to do and start doing things i have to do. Stop playing games stop enjoying myself and start doing things for myself. I'm sick and tired of going all out of the way thinking of everything for the sake of others and doing everything for the sake of others. This time i really want to do things for myself to better my life and to better myself.

A place to stay and a car to drive. 380k. If 1 project is about 3k... then its about 130 projects? Dun seem too much. Just hope i can finish them in 3 years. Wonder how the rest will react... I hate to think that i am giving myself excuses. But i already have 3 projects... And when i see the money, i know its the right thing for me to do. There is only 1 motivation for me to move on in life now. And this path there is no heartbreak only endless achievement.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:47:00 AM

Sunday, July 27, 2003

Wah 3 posts for today. Latest news. My main band is now "defuse". Yes in other words is disband liao. I am no more 2 timeing >_<. No time for too many things. No hard feelings i guess its for the best interest of everyone

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:35:00 AM

Day 3/3. Final day! So tiring... I think today i spent the most of my money already >_<. Time to save up XD, haven get this month pay yet...

Early afternoon like that went out with audrey. Nothing special went around walk walk eat sakae sushi and shop for clothes! She really likes roxy a lot >_<. Haha I starting to think that surf wear... Looks quite nice also lah! Ahh took photo with her at the graffiti neoprint place... Went there actually wanted to see OTHER shoxx ppl there or not... Too bad din see anyone SPECIAL ;(. Quite fun time just walking and talking.

After that went to meet with my band members. Went to eat food. so ex >_< But nvm as long as everyone is happy XD. Everything taking a slower pace already with them... It seems that they all change a lot. Now that i look back. Went to take many photos at the esplanade. Ah, learn a lot of things from degussa... About starting own business and making it big! I really look forward to working now. Especially doing good business since the market for programmers is still so big. And there are so many projects out there.

Mind is racing, thinking about everything... Thinking about disbanding from my band to work full overtime, create many portfolios... Thinking about getting license... Thinking about working and getting my own apartment...Thinking about how to win luna's heart. Mind is too saturated with things to do. And i have no time to do anything.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:09:00 AM

Saturday, July 26, 2003

I NEED DRIVING LICENSE! THEN SHE NO EXCUSE FOR ME NOT SEND HER HOME!!! Conclusion of the day! OK! Time to start work and get the license!!! XD
WOOO HOOOO

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:00:00 PM

Ah! day 2 of birthday. 2/3! of it is done... I think this is gonna be the best year ever! OMG I thought day 1 was good... WHOA WHO WOULD EXPECT DAY 2!

First of all, about afternoon like that, Luna message me, tell me... Lao Pa Sat very far away le... She dowan to go, she go to orchard with her friends... Hear that i already -.-" I also no mood to convince her liao. Then go out still have flu, wah is totally the suck. Thought rather go home and rest. But heck lah just go...

Went to lao pa sat, so early everything still closed... But very hungry still, so we all eat at the satay club there, then... they tell me LUNA GOT COME! Hmm then i hear liao... Damn leh, i got things want to pass to her also, but then i thought she never come... So i never bring. Then luna... BUY ME PRESENT! WAHAHAHA...

We did not wait for them at lao pa sat in the end, wait for them at the raffles mrt then go to singapore river to walk walk sit sit. Ah sit down... chit chat... then "accidentally" hear luna and iris talking. A bit sian lor i think i fit in the category of ppl where height concern she not really interested! Then also some guy call her, then she very happy. Is a guy she like that call her. Wah make me... VERY sian... ;(

Then play truth or dare play play, hear luna is like... a guy from arcade dunno who one... Why ah? all except me arh. Dun care lah! Nowadays i also never think that much actually... I always thinking about... WORK WORK WORK $$$ $$$ $$$... once i have enough then nothing can stop me! Well spin spin spin... Finally the bottle land on my turn liao... Wahaha thx to ivan, have to confess my feelings for her! I think i never in front of so many people, tell a person that i like her before lor. Even though i guess, she already know that i like her. But then i will never forget it XD. The way she smile so sweet and so... KAWAII!

Well the rest of the truth or dare is not really anything much! But then very funny all the dares they all do. Especially KUEK! The ideas he give for dare and the dares he do. LOL really one of the best truth or dare i ever play ;P. GOSU!

Luna bought me sweets, packaging very cute very sweet ;) Strawberry flavour chocolates XD... Actually if she didn't come, i thought i would have given up chasing her already, maybe cause i been trying so hard... But its been like no effect. But then now she turn up and give me present, even though i still think that it has been like no effect and everything i do is still not winning any part of her heart yet... I still feel motivated to go on! WAHAHA I think I this time jia lat already... heart melt with her chocolates ;~)

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:33:00 AM

Friday, July 25, 2003

Ah HUH! Today my birthday! Today was most interesting!
How should i start? Sleep for half of the day? Then go to bugis! Go to bugis see got new game WAHAHA!!! Then my sister and weishu say meet me at bugis... Then they both go to heeren by themselves and then i go there late! Wait no... weishu and loy went to play lan then no money to pay, so i have to go to meridien to pay for their lan, then go to heeren with them. WTF! Then eat dinner quite nice, then weishu pang seh us and give me a stupid fucking face... Eh fuck lah my birthday make me go to lanshop help u pay up, go eat food pang seh me give me a lanjiao bin. WTF man!

Is that bad manner? or is that mannerless. HE IS SO BM!

Ok then after that *shock* they buy a cake for me... WHOA its been so long since i had a birthday cake already... Really was totally surprised... Thought i had grown out of bdae cakes, but well, it was really very nice. Then watched TOMB RAIDER! Not bad movie. But it was some good, mainly because of the beginning. When they talk about the temple they go in... its LUNA TEMPLE XD... How come everywhere i also hear and see LUNA one ;P... Damn so addicted >_<

OH OH!!! Today while walking from meridien to heeren! I saw the PINK gal! Well only a handful of people know who this strange person is! So i shall not talk more about her wahaha! She dun recognise me liao i keep looking at her she look back like dun recognise me liao >_< No more smiles! I cut my hair she dun know me anymore... YC IS NEW PERSON!

Yc is soft as ice cream! Korean girl like soft guy. Soft guy is handsome guy and... soft is like ice cream ^^ -RealRush- YC is learn to be soft like ice cream!

(0) So Waddaya Think! 12:00:00 PM

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Dual updates! For today and yesterday!

Firstly yesterday,
WHOA TOTALLY BODACIOUS MOST ESTEEMED DUDES!
LUNA HAS REPLIED
KkZ, maybe that means she will be going on saturday XD. Whoa that is totally the best news this week. Better than clinching $$$$ deals! TOTALLY BODACIOUS! Well, i thought of asking my ex out on friday for maybe dinner or something. But all she could talk about was how she and her current boyfriend are. So WTF i just told her YO BABE I'M GOING OUT WITH LUNA ON SATURDAY! SONGBO! or something like that. Well that got her all quiet and then she stopped talking to me. Hell i feel damn good saying that tho!
SONG BO! Luna is teh r0x! The force!

OK Today's post liao
Today go see dr chan get mc and buy medicine! He like never sell medicine before leh, never tell me it will cause drowsiness never tell me eat before/after food. When i ask him he look at the caption on the medicine, then tell me LOL!
Sick got flu... ;( Wahaha rest well!

I know why i like the song riyuu so much already... Cause of this line!

wasureyou to shita toki mo aru kedo ima wa dakishimetai

if only can tell that to... the luna ;X

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:12:00 AM

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Whoa today work is damn relax. I finally find out how enjoyable it is to work. Especially when you know of all the $$$ u are making. Well if all goes well i will have 2000 end of this month. WAHAHA freelance programming SURE IS FUN!

Today jiaen's bdae! Didn't manage to pass her bdae present or wish her happy bdae! Never got her hp and din manage to find her ;(
Hmm liting is free this friday so i guess gotta go out with my sec sch friends. But heck just hope luna is free and will be going on saturday ;(

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:45:00 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2003

Ok today went jamming again... Hai... Learn shutter speed learn 2 days the bass solo part, can only play the first part. I think should be use double bass drum ba... Too many moves for my legs! Wahaha maybe i train to play double bass on 1 leg! >_<. Quite fun, this time jam much better than last time. I think i must practice more liao... Cannot slack at all. Got 1 week break next week not jamming. My BdAe Week! XD

Went bugis then went 2nd session... Super tired. Learn new songs this week again!
Fun fun XD. ;(
Ok... now is countdown to friday. Hope luna can make it >_<

(0) So Waddaya Think! 8:30:00 AM

Saturday, July 19, 2003

Went back to my secondary school today! Whoa only old male ex scout who went back. The rest are all ex guides like huiyi yvonne jiaen joanne and that sk8ergal. wahaha ok dun ask me why she is a sk8ergal! But she looked very cool last time when she was sec 4 but din know her name. Huimin i think! Well they all change already everyone like grown up already. Look so not nice compared to last time Hrmph. Well *shrug* who cares anyway. Oh yeah saw michelle prob the last time im gonna ever see her again tho. Come to think about it, kinda sad. But like i said. Who cares

So freaking tired. Thunderstorm early in the morning woke me up at 7+. Couldn't get to sleep so guess what? HEY MAN~!~!~!~ SUCCESS LIFE~!~!~! Yeah can do first half of the shutter speed bass solo. Gonna finish up the rest tomorrow morning also.

Went to buy shampoo and my stylist gave me some tips on styling my hair. Well lets see if it works tomorrow. 2-4! XD

Miss luna, long time no see her. She dun wanna see me ;(

(0) So Waddaya Think! 6:24:00 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

Nice to see many unprecedented bodacious personages reading my blog! Everyday's most heinuosly tiring though, but i'll try to party on! Came back home to write my blog. Gonna write my blog and go off for some totally needed rest. Jamming has been changed to sunday! Gonna rest a bit then practice again ;X.

Life's totally boring these days. And luna doesnt seem to want to respond to me. That is MOST egregious. Don't feel like going out recently. Dun think i'll plan my birthday too XD.

Gonna go to bugis tomorrow to de-stress. Programming all day is a job most un-triumphant. *yawn* Can't keep it out of my head, dumdum kiddie her >_<

Learnt a new language today. If u can't understand this post go to the link below to figure it out.
http://keanuweb.com/credits/movie.excellent_adventure.phrases.html
One last thing. Be excellent to each other... and PARTY ON DUDES!

If you guys were separated it would have been disastrous for life as we know it. You see, eventually your music will help put an end to war and poverty. It will align the planets and bring them into universal harmony. Allowing meaningful contact with all forms of life. From extra terrestrials to common household pets. --- Rufus

(0) So Waddaya Think! 6:29:00 AM

Monday, July 14, 2003

Okay first day of work! Quite ok environment friendly people and okok amount of work, for now that is. Sms luna ask her if she gonna be so i can ask her out on my birthday or not... Well she said i cannot book her cannot confirm she will come out or meet me ;(. Maybe isnt going to be such a delightful birthday this year again >_<

Here's the final plans for next weekend. I have 4 groups of friends i wanna ask out, mainly SHOXX and luna, my band ppl, my seconday school friends, and BUGIS people! Well here's the much anticipated priority list which everyone is waiting for to see how i would rank u as a friend! Well, frankly it would be shoxx and luna, my band people, bugis people and my secondary school friends.

BUT sunday is occupied with my band friends, friday with my secondary school friends i suppose. That leaves shoxx and luna on saturday! I really hope everyone i ask turns up >_<. and i mean everyone not just those selected few *sigh*. I hate birthdays. So much anticipation so much bullshit!

Well watched the uber show i've always wanted to rent! BILL AND TED'S EXCELLENT ADVENTURE. Really guys this show is TOTALLY COOL DUDE! you really gotta catch this one. Yes way! I totally enjoyed the entire movie. AWESOME!

(0) So Waddaya Think! 8:02:00 AM

Sunday, July 13, 2003

First jamming session with new band. Dunno why leh, underperform. Like suddenly sit there dunno how to play. Even riyuu also dun really get the feeling until later nearing the end of the session. Can see why they wanna jam SHUTTER SPEED! gosu song... Should have learnt it earlier. Fun to play easy to learn, quite easy i hope. *sigh* went to bugis to let 12 try to attempt to style my hair. Fail also, i guess i gotta go back and ask for advice. Wah they so skilled ne, even dive to blue i play liao... i feel like, mind blank! >_< nevermind enough excuses. I need more practice. I guess gonna spend the rest of my free non working time practicing songs! wahaha. And trying to ask luna out >_<

Quite some time never see her already wahaha... I think i will message her again tomorrow... Sian tomorrow working liao, wonder how its gonna be. Hope its gonna be slack so i can listen to songs and refresh my memory.

Damn it seems every blog post has luna's name inside. I am obsessed. O_O . Break the addiction.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:52:00 AM

Saturday, July 12, 2003

Today went to bugis, my hair is officially screwed! I dunno how to style it leh!!! DAMN its been ages since i had short hair and now i dunno how to style it! DAMN >_<. Ok back to went to bugis. Didn't play much games... Been thinking of the jamming session tomorrow. Haha OMG!!! How ah? Yokan is gosu, Riyuu is Good, Dive to blue is... *think* ... ok lah is a bit can make it... SHUTTER SPEED IS CMI!!!!!!!!! nevermind i will listen to the song the whole night wake up early tmr to try it out again...

They went to watch Terminator 3 today. Among the people who went were Jialong, tabe, ivan, akane iris, edmund, jojo, LUNA!!! and NO YC!!!!! Hmm been messaging her some messages sometimes, but she doesn't seem to reply me... Maybe she is keeping me at a distance... a GREAT distance so as not to make me think so much as she just want to be normal or maybe not too good friends. Well that won't stop me!!! Sometimes, just gotta keep going and never say die!

Wah, didn't know actually got ppl read my blog... But nevermind, nothing to hide. Wahaha.

Damn, birthday coming... What should i plan...

*Something from irc*
[pEa]\[uT] pls
[pEa]\[uT] i beg u
[pEa]\[uT] write me
[pEa]\[uT] put my name inside?
[DuMdUm|Yc] damn... OK LAH
[DuMdUm|Yc] STOP BUGGING ME
[pEa]\[uT] i will fuck mingen if that is wad it takes
*---------*

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:23:00 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2003

Today must be one of the best days of my life! >_< Went to watch movie with LUNA~!~! WAHAHAHA. Watched twin effects, the show about vampire killing. Quite a nice show... Luna likes the young handsome vampire very much >_<. Anyway went in and watched the movie, though isnt first time i watch movie with her just us 2 ppl, but i feel this time is sort of different... I think she's starting to talk to me too! Although i offered to send her off after the movie... She wouldn't let me. Not even to the bus stop ;(. So sad~! Luna is so adorable and cute... She has the cutest voice and the sweetest smile >_<. Sitting right next to her in the cinema... feel like stretching my hand over and hug her over XD... but no thx dun wanna scare her away... I think i'm falling for her all over again... *sigh*

Went to have my haircut today! Teacher didn't want me to have long hair when i went for attachment as it might affect my grades. Dunno how it would have affected but just went for a haircut anyway. Cut it real short! DAMN! Half its usual length now... Gotta learn to style and manage it... Looks OK to me though, dunno what other ppl gonna say about it... Just a matter of getting used to.

Luna has the most beautiful eyes. Really, especially when she smiles ;)

(0) So Waddaya Think! 12:16:00 PM

Sunday, July 06, 2003

Today morning go back to cchs for cchs bazaar! Saw a lot of people there, quite nice meeting up with old friends. Saw siew bao but she avoiding me like a plague. WTF -.-" nvm her already... *shrug* saw a lot of my sec sch friends, everybody has changed haha... i guess so have i...

Today went to cosfest! So many people~!~! Luna there also >_< wahahaha XD. Ok today pass zl the 5 ugly cd then major bore at cosfest. Seen jialong and hamu botak! wear no.4 there. First time see jialong like that but then dun look strange leh.

Cosfest is quite boring lah but then last band performing is defuse. Hmm last performance shern is going in NS and their bassist is going overseas to study. AND they played uber 1337 455 song transformers theme song. OMG that is the r0x i wonder why they even chose that song.

After cosfest went to beach at pasir ris sit down. LOL. Kuek is wu di. The story is basically about some girls come offer us marshmallows cause they got excess food they wanna clear. Then Kuek hear food liao stand up say want! lol! then they offer a lot of food. Chicken wings, hot dog, jelly and marshmallows >_<. Then got girl play truth or dare come and ask for phone number. At first is just ask ask only, then everyone sabo ask kuek give! wahaha. Kuek talk cock with the other girl then the ger say he siao lang, everyone heard as xiaolang... SO FUNNY! must be there to experience it.

damn fun day. TRANSFORMER! MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE!
damn i'm a quiet boy...

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:51:00 AM